02:56: i feel like there are two versions of me. the me that the world sees, and the me that i don't want the world to see. used to be, the second me would only come out when i'm by myself in my room or in front of this pc, taking control of the keyboard and pouring out through these entries. in the daytime, it stays in the back seat, wearing shades, watching as i go about my routine. now, it's the other way around. i feel as if the first me is in the background and the other me has taken the driver's seat. i move around mechanically, doing what needs to be done, all the while thinking of that which is lacking in my life.
ever felt like you can't go on much longer?
i can't do this...
your absence has gone through me
like thread through a needle.
everything i do is stitched with its color.
--- w. s. merwin
brewed by lifecafe
