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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

 
17:09: work is awesome. the job is easy. i love the account. my team works hard and plays harder. the fact that i was put in this team with just one other person from my wave was actually good, in a sense. it forced me to bond with the rest of the team. and bond i did. our team kicks major ass. being at work and being with these people after shift helped take my mind off of other upsetting personal things and has kept me going.

there have been some changes lately. two weeks ago, openings for tier 2 were announced. 7 people fom our team applied. i didn't. i wasn't interested. a few days after, an opening for trainer was available. it is the one position i've been hoping for since i joined the company and started my training. iko said he'd hit me hard if i didn't apply for the spot. so i did. i figure if i don't get in, i'd be happy where i am, anyway. it doesn't suck to be a tier 1 agent, and i love my team and my teammates and our team manager. i've got nothing to lose. the same day i turned in my application, it was announced that 4 of our 7 applicants were accepted to tier 2, along with 2 of my closest friends from my wave and a few others. our 4 were jason (my seatmate), x, joel, and paolo. wow. i pretty much lost my best buds from the team right there. but hey, i'm happy for them. it makes the team more somber and quiet, but it's still the same team. we've still got our team manager, marj, and we love her. today, marj announced that she's being promoted to escalations team manager. she's leaving us for tier 2.

it's upsetting to think about it. i don't feel abandoned or anything. i'm quite happy for them all. i know that people have to move up sooner or later, and they do deserve it. i just feel sad that work, the one thing that was keeping me steady, is suddenly going through huge changes. i've honestly never been this happy about work outside of theatre. i was hoping it would last a little longer, is all.

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

 
23:59: by far, my worst birthday ever. couldn't even sleep, so i had to ask my brother for sleeping pills.
year of pain, i said. sounds like i was right.
thank you for all the birthday greetings, friends. they made me feel loved somehow.

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Tuesday, January 02, 2007

 
16:58: this will be a year of pain for me.
shut up. don't contradict me.
i forgot how many times i got hurt yesterday. cut myself on new year's eve, hit my head in the cab yesterday, keep hitting my wound, got caught on the cupboard, got my toes stepped on by japanese wooden slippers (chrissake!!)... 2007 equals pain.

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Monday, January 01, 2007

 
12:50:


You are The Star


Hope, expectation, Bright promises.


The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised


The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.


What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.



huh? i've taken this quiz a bunch of times, but i always get this same result. i don't mind; i like stars. but hope and expectation? what now?
if by that, you mean the hopeless hope that you hang onto when there is no hope, then yeah, that's me. the pathetic, hopeless hoping and unfulfilled expectations.

i'm too lazy to research and verify, but my friend sent this quote through sms and he says it's from neil gaiman. sure sounds like gaiman, so i'll take his word for it:

"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself."

happy new year, everyone.

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