09:58: i've changed, i think. i rather like the change, too. i've noticed that i've come to adapt a cooler demeanour. there are other things i still need to develop, as advised by certain parties, but i'm working on it.

lately i've had flags popping up all around me. i feel like everything is falling into place and that forces are pushing me to do something. but it's frightening to put so much weight on something so uncertain and uncontrolled, and something that can be taken so lightly. there are just too many things that could go wrong.
or is that the point of it all? that the impossibility of it is, in effect, the test?

i'm being strange, i know. i think all that time i spent with my crazy friends from work is going to my head.

whatever. happy new year!

Labels: little nothings

 
20:53: last-minute christmas shopping yet again. i've just spent about four grand on gifts for my nephew, nieces, and my "baby" for our family kris kringle. haven't done shopping for my friends yet. gotta wait for my pay to come in before i do that. for now, i must be off to bed to recharge for work tomorrow.

i'm dead tired and sleep-deprived crankiness should be kicking in by now, but i'm still pretty darn happy. some days just can't be ruined when you've got happy thoughts, i guess. =D i dunno. maybe it's infectious.

Labels: little nothings

 
16:08: i hate to bitch about current employers, but let me ask you something...
if you were supposed to get your pay three days ago, and you have just been told that not only is your bank account and atm card not ready, but you aren't even on the master list of the company's employees,
would you be pissed off?

yeah. imagine how i feel. if i didn't love this account so much, i would be ripping people's heads off by now. but i have found that explosive anger and complaining (vocally, at least) are a complete waste of time and energy. so... *breathe haidong gumdo-style* i'm cool.

Labels: little nothings

 
23:27: apparently, they're making a movie of the original dragonlance. if they get a good response, i hear they plan to keep it going. woot!!! i hope that it does go well and that it covers not just the chronicles, but the legends as well. i'm very excited about this project. i hope they do it well. i must have been about 8 or 9 when i picked up dragons of autumn twilight. it was the first book i ever read with triple-digit pages and is the book that got me started on serious reading. we didn't have the rest of the series back then, so i didn't get to finish the whole set until i was about 13 or so.

from what i've heard so far, lucy lawless is goldmoon, michael rosenbaum is tanis half-elven, jason marsden is tasslehoff burrfoot, michelle trachtenberg is tika waylan, and (for the win!) kiefer sutherland is raistlin majere. i'm guessing this will be animated and that these actors will only be doing voicing, coz, dude, i can't imagine any of them physically portraying those characters. lucy lawless as goldmoon? she's a little too, uhm, ...big. now if she were to play kitiara, i would find that more acceptable. but as far as voicing goes, i guess she'd be alright. i love michael rosenbaum as lex on smallville and i know he's done a lot of voice work before, so i have faith, yeah. i'd say marsden is a prety good choice for tas, although michelle trachtenberg is a bit too young for tika, for me. or maybe i'm just getting an afterimage from her buffy days. jack bauer, though, now that is the perfect raistlin voice! had they chosen someone lesser, then i'd say this project is doomed. because, let's face it, dl fans. everybody loves rasitlin. no true fan of this series would accept anyone less-cooler than kiefer to voice someone as cool as raistlin.

speaking of fantasy fiction fandom and movies, one thing i'm dreading is new line's the hobbit. new line has decided to hire another director. let me restate that in a way fans will understand. new line has decided not to hire peter jackson. who the new director will be, i don't know. but they better do a damn good job of it. i imagine that fans are just thinking "alright, show me what ya got. bring it on!" the best new line can hope for is for fans to still watch for the story, but to come into the theater with their guards up. and fans just don't enjoy a movie as much when that happens. i admit that while pj is not my favorite director out there, i just don't see anyone else doing this movie. fans love him for what he's done with lord of the rings and they expect that same passion, dedication, detail, and that same pj "touch" to the hobbit. tsk, tsk, new line. what have you done? you better come up with something good.

Labels: books, movies

 
00:14: i don't like competitive gaming. in fact, i don't like competition, period. maybe it stems from being the youngest of six kids and having older brothers beat you at just about everything. builds character, my @$$! i do admit, i like playing games, but i think of myself as a casual gamer. by "casual gamer", i mean someone who plays final fantasy or other rpg's of the sort for 10 hours straight on weekends and maybe an hour or two on weekdays, if i'm not too busy. no, really, i'm not a hardcore game geek. i say this because i don't know a lot of titles. i don't memorise codes for cool moves in fighting games and such. of course i know the classic up-up-down-down-left-right-left-right- b-a-start command for the old nintendo, but then anyone from my generation knows that. i don't look forward to new games. i don't drool over consoles. i think the only reason i ever played with the stuff was because my dad would urge us to. he'd keep buying them, probably in an attempt to keep us home. i don't think i ever truly wanted games or consoles that we didn't already have. but damn this new job of mine.

i want an xbox 360. badly. everyday, i learn something new about that machine, and everyday, our trainer asks us "can your ps2 do that? (or your ps3? do you even have a ps3??)" and i feel bad. don't get me wrong, i don't love our ps2 any less. it's just that the xbox 360 makes it look like, well, a toy. it's not just the machine itself, either. even the games are cooler. gears of war? i don't like shooting games, first or third person, but it's frickin' awesome stuff! even games that are available on other consoles are better on the 360. better graphics, more possibilities.

sigh. santa? have i been good this year?

Labels: gaming, raves

 
20:48: living in this house sometimes feels like being in a sitcom. when you sit in the living room and just watch people, you'll notice that as one person leaves, someone else enters. then there's the crazy dialogue, evidence that people here don't really listen to each other (one of my pet peeves). take the conversation over dinner, for example. my brother was fixing the text settings on my niece's word document.

wev: you're ready to print, ri.
rian: ok! tell me when you're ready to print. that's on december 6 na, eh.
wev: when do you need it? (and not in a tone that asks "what did you just say?")

wev: you didn't have an egg cooked for me? ri, have yaya fry naman an egg for me. and have her heat my rice, too.
ri: ok, dad! (goes into the kitchen then comes back out 15 seconds later) dad, do you want egg?