17:13: it's driving me nuts. it really is.

it's a bit like a race, this whole thing. like an overtaking maneuvre that you have to time perfectly. look for the perfect opening, get the right momentum, make sure there aren't any other cars around that might get in the way of your move. then you go for it. if you're good enough, or lucky enough, you can drive past without any hitches. if you don't have the pace, you'll find the door being closed on you. if you're too agressive, it will take both of you out of the race. tricky, tricky business. one thing's for sure, though. you're gonna run out of laps sooner or later. if you don't make a move to overtake, then you'll never win.

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16:19: see? like i said, a routine is never good. now i got sucked into a hole and i can't get out of it. perhaps it's a sign?? maybe. if all else fails, i've still got something to fall back on next month, even if i would really rather not go for it.

my ears are bothering me again. maybe it's a seasonal thing? it was around this time last year when i last had a really bad attack. time to go back to the boring diet for a few weeks. until i'm better, i guess there's not much left to do but finish watching kizzi's friends collection.

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