18:24: excerpts from that other blog
been staying over at jersey's place the past week, working on props. whenever we'd take a break to sleep (or try to sleep, in my case), they'd comment "para kang nalugi." i'd just be sitting, leaning against the wall, with this blank and sad expression on my face. classic "the sky is falling" look. don't know who i was kidding... i am such a wreck. i miss *bleep*. and that's not all.
khali is getting married. the brother who, in the last decent conversation i had with him, he said "i don't think i'll ever get married. marriage is not for me." or something to that effect. i think i just officially hit pre-midlife crisis. i am the lone single yuloy. oh, and my sister might possibly be pregnant, by the way. so i'll be the lone single, childless yuloy. in fact, i'm the lone single person in my generation on the caranwe side! all my other cousins are either married, were married or will be married. shit.
i know i'm only 22 and i really shouldn't let this bug me or pressure me into anything. ...but come on! i'm 22! and i've never had a REAL relationship! so far, it's been two pseudo-relationships that were practically non-existent. i don't even know what the hell that was. it's so fucking sad!!
a friend was suggesting that perhaps i should do something about this guy that i like. but that has never gone well for me before. and i am just one big messy wreck right now. i need to figure things out first.
brewed by lifecafe
