02:41: watched hedwig and the angry inch again. found an interesting interview with john cameron mitchell on the net. apparently, yitzak's character really is a guy, secretly wanting to do drag. the only reason they had a girl do the part was to add to the androgynous mind-fuck of it all. well, that and they needed a girl to sing those notes, though i'm sure there are some plantesque male vocalists who could pull it off.
"...if you live in the real world, you know that one person cannot complete you, no matter how much you want it. ... But you never will, no matter how hard you hold onto someone, become one person. And is that useful to think about in the real world? Or why do we need heaven? We'll never know until it's over. It's like the yearning is more important than the possibility."
the yearning is more important than the possibility. hmm... though it has always been clear that my chances are almost always zero, knowing that still didn't stop the yearning.
"The myth [of the origin of love] was picked up by the gnostic Christians, who were really into this idea of the doppleganger and the 'other half,' being someone or something that has information you don't have. It's not necessary that you need to be with that someone forever..."
when i was younger, i never looked at the idea of soulmates in a romantic sense. i believe in soulmates, i just never thought of a soulmate as someone to be with forever. or maybe that's because i always believed your soulmate could be anyone, not just someone from the opposite sex. and of course, coming from a catholic school, it was instilled in me that the practice of homosexuality is wrong as wrong can be (see how damaging exclusive, catholic schools can be?), so that might have killed whatever notions i had of soulmates being romantic. which is why my relationship with my soulmate isn't romantic. just extremely special.
"...but it's necessary that Hedwig meets Tommy. Just because he's her other half doesn't mean that they're going to be together forever, nor should they be, but they need to meet. And it was necessary that she knew everyone in her life, to get to where she does: she's the sum of everyone she meets, rather than the idea that they took a piece [of her]."
that's a nice notion... i guess i'm that, too.
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