13:39: killing time at the internet place before the urinetown prod meeting. it just occurred to me that the show opens on the first week of december... which means every weekend after that is killed... which means...

i

won't

get

to

see

any

premiere

of

return of the king.

...noooooooooooo!!

my only chance would be if i score tickets for the 18th (if there IS a screening on the 18th), or a midnight screening on the 19th or 20th. fat chance....

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20:26: i thought it was just an insane rumor. evidently, it wasn't. i'm on the dean's list. and i don't know why. nyahahahahahahaha...

see? i'm happier when i'm juggling theatre and school. hehehehe...

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04:19: i have had 4 hours of sleep and have been up since 5am of yesterday. i was dead tired, alone, and half-asleep, but i still went to the gig at hard rock, as promised. i'm glad i didn't miss it. it really was a fun gig with very well-picked songs.

in the middle of the gig, i received word that my brother won an awit award, and so did etoile. i was ok. extremely happy for wev, but ok. when i saw etoile's award (someone else had accepted it for her then brought it to hard rock afterwards), i imagined what wev's would look like, beside fuzz's old trophies... then i lost it. i started texting my brother the sappiest congratulatory messages, he thought i was drunk. fuzz would have been so proud.

i love you, bro. one-up! :D

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14:00: you surprise me.
que era aquele? era aquele um momento? caught yourself off-guard, so you stop in mid-sentence, then you remind yourself it shouldn’t happen... for reasons which, i am sure, i don’t fully know or understand.
but this is what i do know: i miss that. i miss you. como pode você ser assim certo que nós poderíamos nunca ser junto?

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13:56: dropping by the animal shelter yesterday cheered me up. i woke up this morning to the news that my application for the adoption of a cat had been approved. i know it's a lot of responsibility, but i really need a focus these days. i'd probably need that cat more than it would need me. i saw some good looking cats among the adults. when i entered the cage, they all rushed to me, then when curiosity faded, they went about their usual business. there was a gorgeous orange and white one, but it was a bully. a lot of the others were nice, too, but they didn't really respond well to me. one of the female ginger ones was pretty cute. it just lay there, lazily blinking as i stroked her. the killer, though, was that kitten at the office where i first came in. as i filled out my adoption application form, it jumped to my lap, as if curious to see what i was writing down. i set it back down on the floor, but it jumped to me again, the little cutie. perhaps if it's still around when i go back, i'll get that one.

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15:05: ouch.

need to remind myself that this happened for a reason. right?

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06:36: aww... kimi lost.
but it's cool. i can't see barrichello's big smile and not be happy for him. besides, schumi is a great driver and he deserves the new record. i'm also glad that dc finished in third, with both mc laren drivers using last year's car. i'm just sad that montoya had to retire because of a mechanical failure, and ralf just kept getting into trouble. too bad for williams... still, this has been the best season of formula 1 racing that i've ever seen. and with spa back, and two new circuits on the schedule for next season, i'm hoping next year will be just as good.

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08:15: the fates are vicious and they're cruel
--- from wicked little town, by stephen trask

i thought it would be impossible for kimi to win the world championship this year, given that he needs to finish 1st AND michael schumacher finishes outside the points, meaning 9th place or below. now, what are the chances that michael actually doesn't finish in the points? it's a lost cause... BUT...

rain... don't you love it? nurtures the earth. gives things this fresh feeling. makes michael schumacher start at 14th on the grid for the last race of the season where the world championship hangs in the balance, with his only competitor 7 places ahead of him. hehehehe...

oh, there is no way i'm sleeping now!

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06:57: caught mishka on tv, plugging the full moon party last night. dang. must be fun to be able to jam so freely. inggit ako. i wish i had my own personal band to play for me. or my own personal aya yuson, pwede na rin! hahaha... i so wanted to go to the gig at the loop, but i couldn't think of anyone who might be interested and who would be free to come. didn't want to go alone, so i stayed home and listened to some gershwin, instead. fun enough for a home alone friday night, i guess.

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06:39: for those who don't know yet, i've switched my url to http://jazznjavabylifecafe.ph
it would be much appreciated if you update your links. thanks!

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07:27: go and hide and run away
run away, run and find something better
go and ride the sun away
run away like it's simple
like it's right...
give me a day, jamie
bring back the lies
hang them back on the wall
maybe i'd see
how you could be
so certain that we
had no chance at all
--- from still hurting, by jason robert brown

i stumbled upon the libretto of jason robert brown's the last five years, read it, and cried my eyes out. i caught the closing show of the local production, on a whim, three weeks ago. we were lucky enough to get orchestra center seats (4th row, smack center!) at the last minute, although i wouldn't have minded standing.

it's an ordinay theme told in an unusual way. a musical on the relationship of jamie, a successful, young jewish novelist, and cathy, a struggling young "shiksa" (non-jewish) actress. the twist is, cathy tells it from the end, moving backwards in time, and jamie tells it from when they first met, to the time they end their marriage. only the wedding scene, the center of their timetable, shows actual contact between the two cast members.

a friend asked me if it would have made the same impact had it been told the other way around, if cathy told it chronologically and jamie had started from the end. it's a typical thing, after all, for women to look back. makes you wonder if men ever look back at all or if they just move on.... i'd take a poll, but then guys don't visit my blog. except maybe fox and he who i no longer speak to. and even if they did visit, they wouldn't bother to leave notes or comment on anything.
anyway, i digress....

terrific show, really. just looking at the song titles on the program, i knew that i was in for a weeper. i promised my friend i wouldn't cry, though, so i didn't. still, that didn't stop me from getting all sniffly during the show. the music itself was beautiful. it had shades of sondheim and larson in it, which i always like. coupled with poignant lyrics, the play drives right through you. it has the same urban drama feel to it that jonathan larson's plays do, only it doesn't have that hopeful note in the end. painful. i likey. definitely need to get my hands on the soundtrack of this one.

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23:07: survey from the cad:

15 years ago, I ...
1. was 7 years old
2. was in 2nd grade, hanging out with mimay
3. would spend my summer nights sitting on the cold, red tiles of my parents' bedroom, watching as my dad edited cartoons

10 years ago, I ...
1. was in 7th grade, hanging out with my 3 best friends, who are still my 3 best friends
2. would fight the "cool kids" in my batch. just because.
3. listened to LA 105.9 hahahahahaha!!!

5 years ago, I ...
1. was introduced to coed tertiary learning
2. had just found out that my dad didn't have long to live
3. discovered how much i really love led zeppelin

2 years ago, I ...
1. was eagerly awaiting the first of the lord of the rings movies
2. was on loa (leave of absence), like i am now
3. worked on rent and became the happiest person on earth

1 year ago, I ...
1. was extremely upset that i had to quit the rocky horror show
2. learned and danced the time warp at every show i watched and every time i played the cd
3. met gestapo boy. heeheehee...

yesterday, I ...
1. finished watching season 2 of buffy, the vampire slayer
2. talked to fox mc cloud
3. read half a book

today, I ...
1. went to a meeting at the mall
2. ate some tofu
3. got to see the full theatrical trailer of return of the king!!

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03:26: i've been resting up lately. i haven't been feeling well and i don't even know what's wrong with me. it seems, though, that my subconcious is more in touch with the real world than i am. i keep getting strange dreams then waking up and finding out an hour or so later what the dreams meant. i hope i get out of it soon, though. it's making me more anti-social than usual.

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