23:45: i had lunch with my two other brothers today. no special reason. i think they got guilty, is all. i hear that my sister told kizzi off on chat for me not being invited to the brother bonding thing that i mentioned before. tsss... not like i could do much there, anyway. khali needed boy talk.
anyway, lunch was good. we may do it again next week. looking forward to that.

yesterday, i turned in my requirements at that place the bitter little girl and i applied at. yes, i signed the contract. (ooh. mark cohen moment.) i sold out. it was a little like me watching someone else. rather strange. to be honest, the only reason i applied there was because i knew that my friend needed the job but wouldn't dare apply by herself. we had agreed to go together, just to give it a shot, with no guarantees of me ever taking the job should we both get accepted. but ... i dunno. doesn't seem too bad. and i'm not doing anything, other than the coming show, anyway. thing is, no one seems to think that i can stay in that kind of work for long. they all say that i'll get bored in a mindless job like that. i probably will. but hey, i've said it before and i'll say it again: it's a cash cow. i start milking on the 12th.
still... i can hear e.'s mocking laughter. "workforce! taxpayer!" *cringe*

meantime, i'm enjoying what's left of my bumming days. and i'm loving this weather! :)

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01:54: but i wanted to go and ... oh, nevermind.


it's funny how our table toned down the very second bob walked in. etoile used to laugh at how i'd rather sit at the bar by myself than stay anywhere near bobby, even when the table he's at is the only table with familiar faces. but, see? it's not just me! mommyball and i hung our heads as soon as we saw him coming down the lobby. jersey girl turned to face him in what looked like a horrid slow-motion moment the instant she heard his voice. our table's unspoken "oh no, bobby's here!" was deafening.

he's not a bad guy, or anything. he's a great boss. funny, and all. i guess we get on edge because he's so observant, you feel like he's watching your every move, even in the most informal of settings, like tonight's. it's not a bad thing, it just makes me feel like i'm being scrutinized by ... carson kressley. nyahahahaha!

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01:22: was that a compliment? or some lame-ass excuse for not having written one yet?
here's an idea... why don't you type-in that lame excuse, and i'll just take it as a compliment? fair enough? ;)

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00:27: going thru some back mail from the jazz list. apparently, i couldn't find khali during the night of the fete because he was holed up in el botin, jamming with cooky and tots tolentino. jim a, who i think runs the jazz list i'm in, said:
I think Karl wants to auditon for a jazz gig, he could be the local Buble with tatoos.

don't. please don't. stick to rock. please. i'm begging you.
of course, my dear brother, i will probably never tell you this to your face, and i'm only posting it here becuase no one gives a shit and you'll never read this, anyway. but... i hate the way you constantly use the shirt-stripping as a scapegoat. everytime you miss a line or some such thing, you take your shirt off, then the crowd goes wild and lets the mistake pass. please. don't bring that to the jazz scene.

or maybe i'm just being bitter.

confession. i want to sing. not just guitar + song hits + toma till 5am singing, although that's great, too. i mean SING.
i envy how mishka and cooky just jam freely with (imho) some of asia's best jazz artists. or how khali, no matter what he does, has enough of a name to be heard. or how wev gets paid a handful of dough just for humming, for fuck's sake!
i know you guys are thinking "why don't you just go on and sing?" i have been surrounded by great voices my whole life. take a look at my family and friends... how many of these guys can sing, and i mean really sing? then take a look at me.
no, i shouldn't be up there.

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02:39: strike two. my turn to apologize.

i was watching this movie on cable, one of those things i watch whenever i'm home and it's on. i must have seen it at least a dozen times over. but it's my first time to see it again since we saw it together. somehow it seemed sweeter, funnier, and altogether more enjoyable. for some reason, the littlest and most ordinary things become special when i have memories of you to go with it.

can you tell that i miss you yet?

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01:18: if you scroll down a bit and look to the side, you'll see some cute stuff i picked up from my friend. got them ages ago, but i never got around to sticking the codes in. that's it for now, until i can finally decide on what design i want to use for this blog. and how to get it to work, of course.

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05:07: there were 10 acts i wanted to see at the fete. 3 at the lounge stage, 5 at the jazz stage, 1 on the main stage, 1 on the rock stage (ayoko kasi tumagal sa rock. ang daming jologs. napaka-elitista ko ba? sori, ha).

of the 10, i got to see...
zilch.

it rained so hard that the main stage tent collapsed during the third set. the third frickin' set!!! then there was a ground on the rock stage... i think they decided to call it a night for all outdoor venues. that left reggae/ska, blues, and electronica. sure, i like blues, i kinda like ska and i don't mind reggae, i'll even sit through the shtoogshtoog... but... pffffffft!
thankfully, i had some good company with me.

i've picked up on cyrus's habit of counting pretty heads. i counted 31 while i was at the fete, rockstars not included. but 2 were worth at least 10 points: the hot vj and drummer boy's friend. turns out, the hot vj interviewed my brother while i was away. dammit! ah, well.



got this from an email that a friend sent me:

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

ahahahahahahahaha!

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03:11: last monday, bitter little girl and i went to hand in our applications at sumo's office. some 5 hours, 3 interviews and 2 tests later, our batch of 11 had been narrowed down to 3. we got accepted. now we have 2 weeks to do some leg work to get our papers and stuff. training starts on the 12th. crud. i already said yes to the new show. i just hope the schedules don't overlap or anything. at least i don't really have to be at rehearsals.


oh. look what time it is. i hadn't noticed. has it really been 5 years since we lost fuzz? seems like such a long time.
oddly enough, i watched big fish the other day (great movie!), completely forgetting about it's theme and story. it made me think about how i would love to know fuzz better through his stories. or other people's stories about him, for that matter. i never heard enough.
a couple of weeks back, a nasty thought entered my head. whether or not there's any truth in it remains to be seen. it disturbed me, yes. and it will probably continue to upset me, should i be exposed to things that would hint at it. but the truth is, i don't want to know, nor do i feel the need to know. i'm happy where i am, believing what i believe to be true. tell me otherwise and i'll kick the living shit out of you. (wow. it rhymes!)
i hope you're doing well, fuzz. :)

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07:09: it's friday. and i'm bored.

i got this from a friend. wanted to answer it, but not on that site, so i'll do it here.

Y O U R...
x. name: krys
x. birthday: jan 3, 1981
x. nationality: filipino
x. school: csb
x. piercings: one on each ear
x. tattoos: none
x. height: 5'2"
x. shoe size: 7
x. hair color: dark brown/black
x. length: too long
x. pets: fitz, the little white monster

L A S T...
x. movie you rented: don't rent anymore. last thing i borrowed was le hussard sur le toit
x. movie you bought: m butterfly
x. song you listened to: chain of fools
x. song you had stuck in your head: face yourself
x. song you've downloaded: delicate by damien rice
x. person you've called: ulan
x. person that called you : elthoron
x. person you talked to online: trina
x. time you dyed your hair: haven't
x. time you took pictures: when did i post the gollum pic?
x. tv show you've watched: invader zim
x. person you were thinking of: trina

D O ...
x. you have a bf or gf: hmm
x. you have a crush on someone: the ultimate crush. ahahaha
x. you wish you could live somewhere else: yes
x. you believe in online dating: no
x. others find you attractive: probably not
x. you want more piercings: wouldn't mind that
x. you want more tattoos: considering getting one
x. you drink: yes
x. you steal: no
x. you do drugs: i need to take these meds for my knees twice a day
x. you like cleaning: do you?
x. you write in cursive or print: print. they made me skip k2, so my cursive sucks
x. you carry a donor card: no

F O R // A G A I N S T...
x. long distance relationships: against
x. using someone: against
x. suicide: against
x. killing people: euthanasia? depends
x. teenage smoking: against, coz it's usually only because they think it makes them look cool. stupid.
x. doing drugs: their decision. as long as they know what they're up against
x. premarital sex: see drugs response
x. driving drunk: against
x. gay/lesbian relationships: hey, whatever suits you, man

C H O O S E O N E:
x. black/white: black
x. bf or gf/ friends: friends
x. morning/night: night
x. pool/jacuzzi: pool
x. britney/christina: who?? ...kidding! i like christina's voice
x. sunlight/moonlight: moonlight
x. short hair/long hair: no preference

F A V O R I T E...
x. food: just gimme meat (that sounded bad)
x. color: shades of blue and purple
x. number: 2, 17
x. song: too many
x. thing to do: watch movies, videos, cable
x. thing to talk about: anything
x. candy: dark chocolate
x. drink: black russian (from peligro!)
x. movie: waaay too many
x. bands: led zeppelin
x. holidays: halloween. the other holidays are sad

H A V E Y O U E V E R...
x. cried over a girl/guy: too much
x. caught your bf/gf cheating: no
x. lied to someone: yes
x. been in a fist fight / arrested: no. but i'd love to punch a certain someone's lights out
x. regretted being with a girl/guy: no

W H A T...
x. shampoo do you use: suave (lavender)
x. perfume do you use: don't use perfumes
x. are you scared of: uhm... ballet bars


N U M B E R...
x. of times I have had my heart broken: one? two? three?
x. of hearts I have broken: i don't think naman i broke their hearts
x. of boys I have kissed: 2 ...i think
x. of girls I have kissed: 1
x. of continents I have lived in: 1
x. of drugs taken illegally: 2
x. of people I would classify as true friends: at least 6
x. of people I consider my enemies: none
x. of cd's that I own: at least 20? i don't count
x. of scars on my body: at least 3
x. of things in my past that I regret: 1. that i didn't spend more time with fuzz

W H A T.P O P S.I N.Y O U R.H E A D..
x. banana: chiquita
x. backstreet boys: tonet, the uber fan
x. fingers: gloves
x. parrot: "kumain ka na baaaaa?"
x. coconut: operation buko juice
x. green: school
x. red: hmm... i wonder if he got in to la salle sia?
x. sleep: in 5 minutes
x. money: need more
x. knife: mousse (ranma 1/2)
x. giraffes: tall

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00:37: there are 2 things i love about the month of june... the rain, and french spring. good films, great music, fun times! the film fest is in greenbelt 3, which means higher rates. but i don't mind. it's a great theater, anyway. more importantly, french spring in manila means the f�te. :D

this year's f�te de la musique will be held at eastwood, on june 19, saturday, featuring:

on the main stage (central plaza)
19:15-19:45 kadangyan
19:45-20:15 sing india
20:45-21:00 opening (cynthia)
21:00-21:30 cynthia alexander
21:35-21:30 makiling ensemble
22:15-22:40 radioactive sago project
22:45-11:10 brass munkeys
23:20-23:50 rannie raymundo (huh?!)
23:55-00:20 wunjo
00:25-00:50 loquy
00:55-01:20 salindiwa
01:35-02:05 brownbeat all stars
02:10-02:40 bayang barrios
02:45-03:15 pinikpikan
03:15-03:30 closing (pinikpikian)

on the drum jam (driveway fronting macali)
17:00-19:15 le batterie
20:15-20:45 le batterie

on the rock stage (parking lot)*
21:00-21:20 the dawn
21:20-21:40 dicta liscence
21:40-22:00 twisted halo
22:00-22:20 mongols
22:30-22:50 6 cycle mind
22:50-23:10 itchyworms
23:10-23:30 nancyspungen
23:30-23:50 stone free
00:00-00:20 late isabel
00:20-00:40 imago
00:40-01:00 kapatid
01:10-01:30 rivermaya
01:30-01:50 sugarfree
01:50-02:10 cambio
02:10-02:30 sandwich
02:30-02:50 bamboo

on the reggae/ska stage (via mare)
21:00-21:30 coffee break island
21:40-22:10 homegrown
22:25-22:55 hemp republic
23:05-23:35 neighbors
23:50-00:20 jeepney joy ride
00:30-01:00 la cucarasta
01:10-01:55 reggae mistrtess
02:00-02:45 trpoical depression

on the jazz stage (eastwood city walk 2, al fresco area)
21:00-21:40 jazz friends
21:45-22:15 h3o
22:25-22:55 blue echoes
23:05-23:35 quail quartet
23:40-00:10 sound
00:15-00:45 wahijuara
00:55-01:35 affinity
01:40-02:20 mother earth
02:25-03:15 buhay

on the blues stage (chicago roadhouse)
21:00-21:45 bluesviminda
21:50-22:20 kharma
22:25-22:55 snakecharmer
23:05-23:50 mr. crayon
23:55-00:25 freeway jam
00:30-01:15 huka
01:25-02:10 spy
02:15-03:00 blue jean junkies

on the 1st alternative stage (amoeba)
21:00-21:30 nityalila (?)
21:35-22:05 nancydrool
22:15-22:30 coffee shop conspiracy
22:35-23:05 paramita
23:10-23:40 narda
23:50-00:20 pinwheel
00:30-01:00 bridge
01:15-01:45 session road
01:50-02:20 moonstar88

on the 2nd alternative stage (ipanema)
21:00-21:30 mojofly
21:35-22:05 spongecola
22:15-22:30 playphonics
22:35-23:05 campokanto
23:10-23:40 the brochas
23:50-00:20 zarah smith
00:30-01:00 sundown muse
01:15-01:45 kitchie nadal
01:50-02:20 barbie's cradle

on the lounge stage (el botin)
21:00-21:45 anya santos
22:00-22:45 mozzie
23:00-23:45 mishka adams
00:00-00:45 cooky chua
01:00-01:45 lyn sherman

on the r&b/hiphop stage (basement)
21:15-21:35 syke
21:35-21:55 joselyn
21:55-22:25 thor
22:25-22:45 pikaso (mc)
22:45-23:15 dice & k9
23:15-23:30 ill-j
23:30-00:00 seven shots
00:00-03:00 rocky rock (dj)

on the electronica stage (big kahuna)*
21:00-21:40 squid9
21:40-22:20 wolfmann
22:20-23:00 rubber inc
23:00-23:40 silver filter
23:40-00:20 morse
00:20-01:00 drip
01:00-01:40 clone
01:40-02:20 dayuhan
02:20-03:00 flow44


*also features afternoon performances from many other artists, beginning 4pm

loquy will be changing their name to "loki" because thor will be on the hiphop stage. *snicker*

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20:23: i think the boys are all going out tonight. some brother-bonding thing. i feel so... left-out.
ah, screw it.

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06:15: it sucks to have to share you with the rest of the world. but...
you don't have to apologize. don't feel the need to make it up to me because of your absence. i understand that you can't always be there. i understand that even when you can be there, it won't always be the way i want it to be. i understand that i can't keep you. i take what i can get and expect nothing more. i know what i have and it's enough.
now i understand that movie quote about never having to say you're sorry. quite ironic, don't you think?

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07:22: testing hello...

thought i'd take a picture of a silly little thing my niece did. creepy how the smiling smeagol head is right at his feet.



more that just the fish song 

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00:24: i feel like i've been duped. i bought a set of tickets to 4 films: troy, harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban, spider-man 2, and catwoman. the whole thing set me back 800 bucks. not bad, actually. except that they sold those to me telling me they were tickets to premieres. but they're not. they're for special screenings, 7pm on the first day of each movie's release, in a venue i don't particularly like. but i understand how these things work so, still, it's an ok deal.
what has me ranting is that these guys don't know how to organize a frickin' screening. garapalan when it comes to reservation of seats. they have yet to start on time, or let people in at a reasonable time, for that matter. they even made my friend pay for tickets which had already been paid for. for this latest screening, they started to let the crowd in at 7:30 or so, with the film rolling before even a fourth of the crowd was in the theater. ugh.
thankfully, the movies have been good so far. at least i leave the theater in a much better mood than i was in when i entered it. for the next two movies? i'm not so sure. i'll probably like the spidey sequel. maybe. i hope i'm wrong about catwoman. i get the feeling that watching it at a screening organized by that group will be more trouble than it's worth.

now, since i didn't watch potter on the best of nights, i will postpone commenting on the film until i see it with much better company on the 7th.

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22:00: picked up fitz from khali's place. she is huge! i don't know what he feeds his cats, but whatever it is, it does turn them into monsters. she's a lot heavier. even her face has gained more mass, i think, and makes her eyes look less puppy dog-like. she's gotten cuter, though.


the three magic letters.... though i'm not overly and irrationally cranky this time around, i am craving like crazy. sadly, i'm not due back at my dentist's until next week and until then, i'm restricted to oatmeal. gimme chicken... beef... something, anything i can chew, for chrissake!

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