16:02: christmas is coming. sniff.
when we were kids, christmas eve was always the best night of the year. all my cousins would come over. we would have this monster of a feast and spend a good hour just sitting around and talking, waiting until we were comfortable enough with our over-inflated bellies to be moving around the house again. long after everyone had gone home, we would stay up and open presents. my mom would insist that we open the presents carefully, making sure not to tear the wrapper. did much for our eq, ya? we'd finish way past sunrise and still have unopened presents for christmas day. come 10am, no one would want to get up and go to my mom's side of the family for christmas lunch. nyahahahaha! it was always a blast. a huge chunk of the fun was having four brothers and a sister and such cool parents. christmas has always been about family. that's probably why, now, i feel christmas is not for me.
i've been dreading the 24th. ...i've got nothing to do. everyone will be at their in-laws in the south. i'll be alone. or worse... with my mom. i know i just said my parents were cool, but my mom doesn't seem to get the idea that i do not like spending the holidays with people who are introduced to me with a detailed explanation of why they are my relatives. i do not know these people!!! yes, they're a nice bunch, and yes, it can be fun, but come on! they have their own lives and they do their own thing. i'm just the outsider living vicariously. it's pathetic.
sigh.
i think that this year, i shall insist that my mom go out and have a good time while i stay home. cable tv and the dvd player will be my best friends. besides, i'd hate to have my cat spend her first christmas alone.
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