06:24: home from dinner with my best friends. it started out ok. good food, good conversation, jokes, exchanging presents... real fun. it turned sour when he called while we were hanging out after dinner and he insisted on showing up. he was making whiny little girl choose between us and him. she didn't even put up a fight. her choice was obvious. she said she would leave and we could stay and enjoy the rest of the night. too late. the night was already ruined. when we made it clear that we were leaving, she felt like we were making her choose as well. we weren't forcing a choice. if anything, we were avoiding confrontation. but sooner or later, it would still come down to that one choice. how very garion. well, child of light, you've made your choice. so be it.
at dinner, i began to believe that we could still salvage this friendship. that we could coexist. give us our time and keep the bull crap away while she's with us. big fat flipping chance. this is how it was before, and it's the way it's gonna be now. eight years hasn't changed him, but i thought it would be enough to change her. i hadn't said anything up until tonight, but i think i made it perfectly clear how i feel about him coming back. none of us wanted to see him and we all left before he could even get there. i didn't say goodbye to whiny or anything. i just got my stuff from the car and walked away. i'd like to think that this will go away somehow. or that i can live with it. it won't. i can't. i've lost a friend today.
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