05:54: "did you see the sunset? was it beautiful?" i wanted to ask. but i don't want to open a can of worms. maybe it's nothing. maybe what they have is a deep sort of friendship, like me and e. yeah, ok, that's not a very good example. maybe it's like me and matthias. or maybe i'm projecting my own guilt onto it and i'm making too much of it. i like to believe in the goodness and integrity and honesty and fidelity that can be found in man. i have too much faith in man. that makes me a raging idiot.
as for my own guilt.... it's as if every single thing i watch on tv is laying a huge guilt trip on me. but this new thing i found out is the kicker. it definitely puts things in perspective. i still keep wavering, though.
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