17:04: i'm slowly falling into a routine, which is never really good. routines make me restless. still i've got enough going on up there to keep me preoccupied. as long as i've got a notebook to write in and some good music, i'll be fine.
i've received some information that ought to make me happy, but i find myself paralysed with fear. i've never been good at this sort of thing. a part of me wants to forget about it altogether because i don't want complications.
...i'm going in to roger-mode here, aren't i? for all the renthead preaching i do, i am one huge chicken shit hypocrite.
*breathe*
ok, i'll do something about it. just wish i could find the right opportunity.
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