10:29: a friend of mine has been asking me to go out drinking with him. he lives in the south, and he rarely visits this area, so he bugs me whenever he's here. problem is, the timing is always off. i've had to flake out on him three times these past few weeks. it's not fair, really. after all, he's always been there for me. i've hardly ever been there for him. poor guy... it was his birthday and he's leaving manila soon. i don't know how long he's gonna be gone. he was even offering to cover my cab fare to the bar, to pay for my drinks, and to take me home. there aren't very many guys who'd do that. still, i said no.
what is it with him and me? is it really about timing? or am i just seriously messed up?

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10:15: was that me? yes it was. was that him? no it wasn't..
just a trick of the woods!
just a moment,
one peculiar passing moment.
must it all be either less or more,
either plain or grand?
is it always 'or'?
is it never 'and'?
that's what woods are for:
for those moments in the woods...

--- from moments in the woods, from sondheim's into the woods

i tell you, all the musical theatre characters i relate to... they all die.

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13:40: wehehehehe. i managed to download scanlations of the first 24 volumes of beck. 25 and 26 are also available for download, but i'll get the last four volumes when they've been completed. let's hope i last that long. in any case, i've also got scans and scanlations of the whole rurouni kenshin series to keep me preoccupied. woot!

ryusuke looks like our guitar player, kc, in this drawing.



p.s. i have no desire to see kc, or any of my bandmates and their friends, play shirtless.

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10:05: i've gotten addicted to scanlations of the beck manga. i've only read volumes 11 and 12 here so far. if you know where i can find more scanlations, please, do let me know. fuel my addiction.



taira-kun rocks. and who wouldn't want a bassist who looked like that? =D
i wonder, would ryusuke look as good if he played guitar shirtless??

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18:18: got this from sanity lane

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

 
19:01: 0 for 3! woohoo!
the bitter little girl asked me if i feel like i've just taken ...nevermind. let's just say it was a disgusting analogy. i said that no, i do not feel that way. why? because i was not in that place yet. there was a lot more to this. this one was different. is different.
and the punches keep coming.

you know what sucks about this quarterlife crisis thing? you think you're getting somewhere then *BAM!* you realise that you're nowhere near where you thought you'd be. a lot of people my age don't even know what they want. what sucks about the whole thing for me is that i do know what i want. well, joe, knowing is not always half the battle. if you think that makes things easier, you have no fricking idea what you're talking about. when you don't know what you want in life, you can loaf around and take time to figure things out. once you know what you want, when you loaf around, you're just a fuck-up. i know what i want to do, but i can never find the right thing that will let me do it. so i settle for the next best thing, which i never last at because i know i'll be happier elsewhere. when you know what you want, you're practically doomed to be unhappy.

forgive the pessimism in the entry above. i've had too many cigs and i'm not stopping just yet.

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17:21: into my hands now
the ball is passed
i want the spoils
but not too fast
the world is calling
it's now or neverland
why can't i
stay a child forever and...

---30/90 by jon larson

 
22:55: abbeyroad tagged me. i'm supposed to name ten of life's simple pleasures that i like the most, then pick ten people to do the same.

here's my list. pretty much in order.

rain. sleeping all day when it's raining. the sound of the rain against my windows. playing, walking or just standing in the rain.

listening to music. hard rock, alternative, jazz, blues, showtunes, even the crud i used to listen to when i was younger. i would go nuts if i ever went deaf.

singing. not to be heard or anything. i just love to sing. i guess it's the same as what abbeyroad said about jamming. i love being a part of music.

being with my brothers and my sister. and my warbin cousins, too. never got enough of them when i was growing up, i guess. and i still can't get enough of them. with maybe the exception of my other brother. nyahaha.

tauron, the flash, and everything that goes with it. i'm sorry. i can't explain.

hanging out with friends. be it drinking with the boys and the usual regulars (the little girl + ron años = extra fun), having a sleepover and doing marathons with bits and phil, or just goofing off with my oldest friends.

caffeine. coffee, definitely. tea, especially chai tea latte. sodas like pepsi, dr. pepper, a&w cream soda.

being alone. sometimes it's nice to just stay in a coffe shop by myself and write.

the early stages of being in love. not that it's where i'm at right now. but what can i say? i'm a girl.

theatre with atlantis regulars. it's been a while. i'm one lucky kid for having gone into this kind of work with these people... i get paid to do what i would pay to do.

your turn. i'm not obliging 10 people but if you're up to it, then why not, eh?

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22:54: i have so many thoughts in my head right now, i can't even make any sense out of just one.

it's official. as of tonight, i am the last one standing. my brother has done what we had once never expected him to do, and what a lot of people may be shocked to know he even considered doing. already i can imagine what the holidays and every single family gathering will be like. the pressure is on.

tick... tick... tick... tick...

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