19:01: 0 for 3! woohoo!
the bitter little girl asked me if i feel like i've just taken ...nevermind. let's just say it was a disgusting analogy. i said that no, i do not feel that way. why? because i was not in that place yet. there was a lot more to this. this one was different. is different.
and the punches keep coming.
you know what sucks about this quarterlife crisis thing? you think you're getting somewhere then *BAM!* you realise that you're nowhere near where you thought you'd be. a lot of people my age don't even know what they want. what sucks about the whole thing for me is that i do know what i want. well, joe, knowing is not always half the battle. if you think that makes things easier, you have no fricking idea what you're talking about. when you don't know what you want in life, you can loaf around and take time to figure things out. once you know what you want, when you loaf around, you're just a fuck-up. i know what i want to do, but i can never find the right thing that will let me do it. so i settle for the next best thing, which i never last at because i know i'll be happier elsewhere. when you know what you want, you're practically doomed to be unhappy.
forgive the pessimism in the entry above. i've had too many cigs and i'm not stopping just yet.
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