17:16: this will be cryptic and emo. sorry.
i wish i had all the answers. i wish i wouldn't have to see my friends hurting this way. i wish i had all the words to make things right. but all i can go by is my own experience, and what's that? nothing.
i keep saying, "hang in there." i keep encouraging people to keep fighting. we're all just going on nothing but the belief that things will all work out right somehow. and i feel like such a hypocrite, telling others to fight and to never give up when i myself am on the verge of giving up everything that makes me happy.
how do you hold on to hope when everything around you is falling apart? what do you do when that which makes you happiest is also that which brings you the most pain? in that way, i understand why someone would choose to end something so good. but although i understand it, i still feel that it isn't the best course of action. not for them. not with this.
as for my own actions on my own dilemma... i haven't decided what to do. if tonight brings an opportunity, then i'll take it.Labels: little nothings
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