17:09: work is awesome. the job is easy. i love the account. my team works hard and plays harder. the fact that i was put in this team with just one other person from my wave was actually good, in a sense. it forced me to bond with the rest of the team. and bond i did. our team kicks major ass. being at work and being with these people after shift helped take my mind off of other upsetting personal things and has kept me going.

there have been some changes lately. two weeks ago, openings for tier 2 were announced. 7 people fom our team applied. i didn't. i wasn't interested. a few days after, an opening for trainer was available. it is the one position i've been hoping for since i joined the company and started my training. iko said he'd hit me hard if i didn't apply for the spot. so i did. i figure if i don't get in, i'd be happy where i am, anyway. it doesn't suck to be a tier 1 agent, and i love my team and my teammates and our team manager. i've got nothing to lose. the same day i turned in my application, it was announced that 4 of our 7 applicants were accepted to tier 2, along with 2 of my closest friends from my wave and a few others. our 4 were jason (my seatmate), x, joel, and paolo. wow. i pretty much lost my best buds from the team right there. but hey, i'm happy for them. it makes the team more somber and quiet, but it's still the same team. we've still got our team manager, marj, and we love her. today, marj announced that she's being promoted to escalations team manager. she's leaving us for tier 2.

it's upsetting to think about it. i don't feel abandoned or anything. i'm quite happy for them all. i know that people have to move up sooner or later, and they do deserve it. i just feel sad that work, the one thing that was keeping me steady, is suddenly going through huge changes. i've honestly never been this happy about work outside of theatre. i was hoping it would last a little longer, is all.

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23:59: by far, my worst birthday ever. couldn't even sleep, so i had to ask my brother for sleeping pills.
year of pain, i said. sounds like i was right.
thank you for all the birthday greetings, friends. they made me feel loved somehow.

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16:58: this will be a year of pain for me.
shut up. don't contradict me.
i forgot how many times i got hurt yesterday. cut myself on new year's eve, hit my head in the cab yesterday, keep hitting my wound, got caught on the cupboard, got my toes stepped on by japanese wooden slippers (chrissake!!)... 2007 equals pain.

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